Whatever I am Now I am...

ABBU: We (me and your mama) r in Sheraton and having Lunch at the moment with your Dirhams :)...Work Hard and send more .... (just kiddin)

ME: Insh-e-Allah will send you more .... Bas Dua karein ... Sheraton mein kiss kay saath lunch kar rahay hein ap loog?

ABBU: Official Lunch, Invited by Haider & koko (an uncle and aunt) ... Ur mama and me always remain in Duas specially when in CAR and out too...Insh-e-Allah u will get more and more....


Well, this is a short conversation between me and my father thru SMS....It has the reason for how and y I am "the Naqi", i am now......whatever I have and whatever I am today is due to this reason...And therez nothing I am doing for my parents or family now...nothing at all.....I have seen my parents bearing things that I myself perhaps cannot bear as a father..just to give us better standard of living and better education, my parents finished their pleasures, refrained from comforts....The hardships I am bearing now (if any...awal tou koi hai hee naheen Allah kay karam say) are nothing...just nothing at all when compared to what my parents borne for me.....Now it is the time for me to try to compensate for wat ever I can to them...for as per a hadeeth I can never even repay a single maneuvering in my motherz womb....You cannot imagine how great a pleasure it is to see a sign of satisfaction or comfort on my parents hardship and age scared faces now....To see them enjoying in their lives now.... May GOD always keep them healthy and happy in their lives now....Ameen....and MAY GOD ALWAYS KEEP ME ON THE RIGHT PATH SO THAT I ALWAYS BE A SOURCE OF COMFORT AND PLEASURE FOR MY PARENTS......Ameen

therez another prespective also in this SMS conversation, when I recieved this SMS from Abbu, A sudden surge of confidence and comfort flowed into me....A confidence that I can achieve and I will achieve impossibles....Yes, all teh tensions flowed out of my mind for I am sure that when my parents are praying for me so much then I have nothing to worry...My GOD will take me to all those places that are best suited to me and those which will bring more and more prosperity to me...AMEEN....

Its all becoz of you my parents...its all becoz of you.....Luvvvv you limitlesslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Kiya haiiiiiii

kiya haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........Y always on weekends.......... specially this feeling has increased a lot from the time I have come to UAE.....On every thrusday (the weekend here) I started feeling down and my heart starts (sort-of) sinking and Mood gets OFF :).....is waqat na mera hansnay ka dil chah raha hai na hee ronay ka .. ajeeb chirchira hoa waa hoan mein......Ghar aur family memebrs ko missing a lotttttt.....ghar mein hota tou mama kee goodh mein lait jata or soo jata ya un say light see baatein karta....Maa kee goodh...kiya baat hai....you are when there tou all the tensions get off your mind and its too soothingggggg........lekin khair Delhi Door asttttttttt.............hehehe....yahan abhee tou mera dil chah raha hai kay kuch na ho .. mein kisse aisee jaga chala jaon jou kay buhat pur-sakoon ho aur mein wahan ja kay araam say lait kay Muraqbah Karoon :) ... Muraqabah....Means to meditate......bas betha rahoon or soochta rahoon past, present and future alll............................kuch achee yaadein...kuch talkh yaadein...all of them....or the place should be very calm and quite and it should be natural...(not a room or anything)....koi garden...kiss darakht kay saye mein baith kay...kiss beach pay lagee umbrella kay neechay baith kay ... :) ...

Baaz uqaat dil chahta hai kay Banda Fararrrrrrrr ho jaye.......kaheen doorr buhat doorrr :) ... lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........naheen ho saktaaaaaaa.........chalo is kay baad aik or blog likhta hoan ... aik or topic zehan mein aa gaya.....us pay likhnay ka mein sooch hee raha thaa....aisay hee time guzray ga :)....

Bai-His

Foreword: this blog has nothing at all to do with anything in my present…I was thinking of writing a blog on this for long but never got time for the same…It is just a feeling mainly connected and originating from my past….

This is one trait in people that I hate the most….that is Bai-His loog…I hate them I hate them all…The moment I see someone doing something with the other person or even animal that comes into the jurisdiction of Ba—Hisi.. That person is gone from my good books ….(Yes even the animals…I remember that I once wrote in a blog what I saw that a big and ugly bully was being beaten by his master on the road….I could not help but imagine that how bai-his is this man) …. …no matter who he is…except for my family members for them if I see them doing something like this…I fiercely confront them on that and ask them to shedd off their cold-bloodedness and respect and care for other peoplez conditions and situations esp for those who are less-blessed in one way or the other, anyways my family members are always very careful in their treatment of others and fear GOD for it for they know how painful it is when you run over somebodyz emotion for the reason that they don’t possess wat you might be having at the moment….In my past I have encountered people who were just blind I would say….becoz they never gave any thought to their actions and in their arrogance rolled down others emotions….Never realizing that what hard time the other person might be passing through and being their close-ones we should be helping and encouraging them rather making fun or degrading them…..or narrating those stories and accomplishments and feelings before them which they themselves know can be bought or can come through available resources only that the other person does not have….resources here does not mean only financial ones….any one….the comfort in home is one sort of a resource through which you remain healthy and comfortable and mentally satisfied….Anyways wat my idea is that the behavior of people should be judged and analyzed in the light of the prevalent or past situations, conditions and times through which they have passed…and then they should be treated according to that…and any comments about them should take in to account those times…..

From another angle, one should be very Fearful of GOD on this…becoz time never remains the same….for anybody….today he is in some trouble tomorrow you can be in the same situation….but most of the people don’t realize that….They just don’t….I am unable to understand y…y and how people at times bark (sorry this is a bit harsh) on beggers and disabled on the roads or scold their servants like they are their commodities…Y don’t they fear GOD that its just a matter of time and they can also be in that situation…(to hell with that beggers mostly tell lie or not…leave it on GOD yaar but y scold them) …. Adding one more perspective; it is quite true of human psychology that you can never feel the pain of anyone in trouble unless you yourself encounter the same situation….you just cannot feel that…but wat one can do is to be careful about their actions and words esp before those who are not blessed the way they are…(Again “blessed” here means anything…not only financially or socially but it might be physical..it might be mental…or anything)…

Anyways…May GOD give me and my Family the carefulness and sensitiveness required in dealing such things…i.e. the way MY LORD want such situations to be tackled….Ameen…

Chaha hai Tujhe Ko

Chahaa hai tujhe ko ... chahoon ga har pal.......mar kay bhe dil say yeah piyaar na ho ga kam..........



Listening to this song at the moment ... Reflects my emotions somewhat at the moment..........